Sunday, October 21, 2007

I Am Paul

I am Paul.

I am filled with sin, yet I have Christ.

I have days where I do not feel worthy of taking the cup or the loaf. I am a sluggard, undisciplined, compulsive, polluted and poisoned. I wonder why people don't recognize me for who I really am. I want to cry out for help, but don't want to reveal who I am less people do not understand.

I am Paul. I am a leader. I have some knowledge; some day that my words really speak to them. I know God. He has spoken to me. He has done remarkable things. Things that I cannot pass off as coincidence. I know He really exists. Some days I experience joy: my mind is clean and it does not covet; my eyes do not go where they shouldn't; I pray, and not just for myself. On those days I want to share my joy. I want you and everyone to truly see me.

I am human. I live a see-saw life. One foot in heaven and one foot on Earth.

So help me God.

"I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out." - Romans 7:18 (New International Version) Source: Bible Gateway.com