I am Paul.
I am filled with sin, yet I have Christ.
I have days where I do not feel worthy of taking the cup or the loaf. I am a sluggard, undisciplined, compulsive, polluted and poisoned. I wonder why people don't recognize me for who I really am. I want to cry out for help, but don't want to reveal who I am less people do not understand.
I am Paul. I am a leader. I have some knowledge; some day that my words really speak to them. I know God. He has spoken to me. He has done remarkable things. Things that I cannot pass off as coincidence. I know He really exists. Some days I experience joy: my mind is clean and it does not covet; my eyes do not go where they shouldn't; I pray, and not just for myself. On those days I want to share my joy. I want you and everyone to truly see me.
I am human. I live a see-saw life. One foot in heaven and one foot on Earth.
So help me God.
"I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out." - Romans 7:18 (New International Version) Source: Bible Gateway.com
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